Its stupid. But fact is I've not been able to get use of your non presence these 6 years.
It would be stupid to thumb a message, even so when the worst has already been done when I pressed the send button after typing out that lengthy crap email. Man, I really hope you're the kind who doesn't check your email and maybe 20 years later when you do, you'll just have a good laugh while reminiscing the past.

I used to get updates on you occasionally through S during secondary school and N in the start of JC. Its kinda funny how things turn out sometimes. We may not contact at all, but yet, news of you seem to still continue travelling to me somehow.

The irony of life, really.
How we would used to bump into each other almost all the Sundays whenever we're out with our families, no matter which part of sg we were at.

& How even now we live few blocks away and despite me waiting for banchou under her block every single time we hang out I never got to see you.

How we used to be such good friends and basically talked everything under the sun.

& How we totally became strangers after that, AND YET have my cousin be your sister's good friend, my another cousin be your ex classmate.

Wtf hor, seriously?

News about you don't really bother me anymore, not even rumours of you hanging out with someone you once hated to the core. But still, if only we were still friends... 

Having said that, it would be even more awkward if we suddenly contact each other again. Especially when things already felt so weird during our class chalet years ago, and the last session of mj.

I.Should.Really.Move.On

Till now you're one of the few whose number i can remember. Seriously wtffffffff. Fb deleted, Msn deleted, Number deleted. Guess I still need a better plan.

Damn I just typed everything on MSword and it just refuses to paste itself here.

Instead :)

SRX's birthday yesterday! Did IDEAS in the afternoon and turned down his movie trip, everybody didn't manage to go because KTYX was busy with her project, LIMYK had his don't-know-what leadership training, SLSY had her college rehearsal thing and LJW had his CCA. Mad sad bohhhh I BET HE WAS EMO-ING LOL KIDDING.

Anyway Limyk suggested surprising him at his house and so we met at 8 to get the cake. In the end KTYX was still undone with her project, SLSY was still nowhere to be seen and LJW was on his way (damn long never see him liao). In the end dragged until about 830 and we finally reached his void deck. Limyk thumbed him a message saying he was near his house and wanted to return him his stuffs, but that GL birthday boy just got pissed off at home and refused to come down! Limyk got kupped by him a few times somemore, sadded much hahahaha.

We decided to go to his house to find him BUT NOBODY KNOWS WHERE HE LIVED WTF. Friends for 7 years, and even his BFF LIMYK doesn't know, mysterious or what! In the end KTYX remembered that he said he didn't live at the 13th level because this guy is quiten pandang+superstitious and that he lived above level 10. Limyk had a feeling it was 12 and KTYX said 11. So we ended up splitting up to look for his unit by checking out the shoes outside (WTF GIVE SURPRISE ALSO NEED GUI GUI SUI SUI! )

In the end managed to find (OMG GENIUS OR WHAT) and Limyk received a sms that he was going down to collect his stuff. What we didn't know was that he already noticed them loitering outside his house! ( sigh, failed )

So yah, went to playground for his cake and that stupid guy ended up knocking his head when he wanted to go buy drinks. SIGH. In the end the biggest birthday present was probably the bump on his forehead (N)

failed terribly,
BUT AHWELL, AT LEAST WE FINALLY KNOW WHERE THE HELL HE LIVES.

Absent myself from school. Sorethroat+mild fever+cough+flu and headache zzzzzxzzzzzz. Damn the weather seriously. 
GWS soon too bao!

Currently on a mission to save money and earn moneyyyyyy :( I want to go China during March next year with Baos! Air ticket will already be damn expensive zomg. I think add here and there I need at least 1k plus? Time to save and scrimp liao man. But looking on the bright side, if I really manage to save enough $, I'll be away for like maybe at least 2 weeks and at most a month? Wah, mad shiok life leh (Y)

RX YK and SANS went for kushinbo again. Wtf, good food! BUT because lessons ended quite late and yeah, I'm on my mission, I had to give it a miss. Sigh sigh, sorry man! Will try to buchang you in some way!

 This is not doing me any good. I ought to just stop thinking about it. Whatever you guys want to do, I just hope that history won't repeat itself ever again.

 Really, don't act as if nothing happened last night and talk to me in this calm manner. 

If you think that will solve the problem, I have nothing to say. 
Ohwait, Do I even need to say anything? Even if we don't, you'll still go with your decision.

So why ask in the first place?

 Seriously, with you guys around, what kind of adversity can still bring me down? This shit doesn't seem to be ending. What joke.b

AHH YAAAA THANKS FOR REMINDING ME THAT I'M 17 I NEED TO BE MORE RATIONALE IN MY THOUGHTS.
AND YES I'M NOT. I CAN'T THINK OF ANY SOLUTION. MY TEARS JUST DON'T LISTEN TO MY BODY AND START FLOWING.

WHATTHEHELL YOU WANT ME TO DO SERIOUSLY?

You know what? If I'm to let this happen, I'll jolly well brace myself for the day you guys sign the paper.
You want a 17-year-old grown-up attitude?

How about a poker face?
Or would you rather I wear a fucking gown and congratulate you guys?
"GOODJOB! THE PROBLEM HAS FINALLY BEEN SOLVED!"
....................

Do what you deem fit,
I don't give a fuck.
Neither do you, isn't it?

Woke up late.
Blackout.
Lift stalled.
Walked down from 24th storey.
Forget to bring my dictionary but no way I was going home.
Legs became jelly, nearly died on bus and MRT -.-
Late for school.
Again.
Third consecutive day.

(N)

GERMANY VS SPAIN! We won 40 ytd, minus profit = 10. Sigh, /6 not even 2 bucks each!
Maybe if 4-3 today we'll get our 450 bucks, heh.
SRX, you should just sms everybody saying we win 450 later, since we really won 40 after your dai sai sms last night. 
Haiz haiz haiz

Met up with Mini USUALS last night! Zhi-Chared at Rx's house there and ohmygod. The portion was scary much. KTYX and LIMYK came late and so we ordered first. I swear those two friends of mine looked as if they haven't had a decent meal for decades!

Plucked up my courage to calculate my GPA with the help of KTYX who zai-ly got 3.7 for her MSTs. SIgh, I'm not even near there, I think mine's like 2? BIologys' mainly borderline passes which explains the case but well, I don't have any either way out but to work harder, do I?

LIMYK came super late and we started talking bout soccer while waiting for him to finish his dinner. Ended up chipping in for the sake of fun, and we happily thought that through the way we bought, we were bound to win but its just a matter of the amount! Turned out our happiness was short lived because we saw the odds wrongly. Hiyo. Uruguay better kick a goal in first half and let holland win after that. Better still if holland wins 3-1!

Currently working on my CRS research, essay test tomorrow gosh. Been don't know how freaking long since i last wrote an essay manxz.

And random much, I need a media player system that plays lyric's like XW's QQ!!!

好久没有这种感觉了。明明就习惯了可是还是会感到慌张，不知所措，沉默。You know? The feeling that you really have no other solution but to dig a hole to hide into. Gawdddd. Paisei max

Qian Hu with YY XS BAKA DEAN AND ST yesterday, those crazy people went to try out the fish spa! 10 bucks for half an hour, I'm not quite sure about the normal rate but I guess its considered ok (?). Those siao people started screaming and making a fool out of themselves because they couldn't stand the ticklish feeling, 丢脸much!

K-ed after that, EIGHT BUCKS FOR THREE HOURS IS MAD CHEAP OMGGG. After which my bikes got cycled back home while i took the bus LOL, thanks manxzxz <3

Studying with XW now in the freaking cold library, seriously, they ought to save the earth and turn up the temperature! That crazy woman is laughing like hell and holding her mini concert hahahaha. But I like cos she's damn zai in chemistry (Y) Suck at chemical equilibrum manxzx.

Meeting semi-USUALS for dinner tonight. GWS TNW!